TriVeggies

Wow – it’s been a few weeks! I’m so sorry for the silence on these pages. To be honest, I sometimes feel like nobody is reading, and/or caring about what I have to say, so I’ve had a lack of motivation to keep posting. I can only be accountable for so many things, friends, and since I’m unclear on how beloved this blog actually is, it’s gotten short shrift as of late.

This isn’t a plea for fan mail (though that’s always welcome!). Rather, just an explanation of where my head is at these days. To be honest, I’m in a bit of a period of “Is anybody out there?” in many aspects of my life. Since we’re all strangers here, I’ll be frank and say that even in my personal life, I’ve been feeling like an afterthought a lot lately. I work really, really hard to pour my heart and soul into my friends and loved ones, and over the past few months, I don’t really feel like too many people are taking the time to pour back into me.

It’s disheartening, to tell the truth. I call and text friends to check on them and see what’s going on in life; hardly anybody calls or texts me out of the blue to do the same. I invite friends out to do things; it’s largely unreciprocated (with a few notable exceptions). I send gifts and cards to people far away; they mostly go unacknowledged. After a time I wonder to myself if I’ve been a good friend after all, or if these folks are trying to tell me something about myself in not so many words. And that’s disheartening, too, and makes me rather paranoid that maybe everyone has just been putting up with me all this time and now that life is busy for them, it’s easy to cut me loose. Maybe I didn’t mean so much to them after all. The thought makes me sad.

Whew. That went a direction I didn’t expect! Thank you all for being my therapist today. And on a training-calendar post, at that. Whee!

Anyway. Ahem. Here’s what I’ve got cooking this week.

Monday: We start the week a bit defunkitated, as I like to say. I’ve got an hourlong swim scheduled for the morning, but have a volunteer shift that begins at checks watch 5:30 a.m. (!), so a morning swim isn’t in the cards. I also have a 45-minute strength class at RowHouse to work in after work. So we’ll see what happens to that poor old swim.

Tuesday: It’s assessment week again, and first up is a 20-minute FTP test on the bike! Whee! I bumped up a few dots in TriDot last month; here’s hoping I can keep a positive trajectory.

Wednesday: A midweek 5K time trial is in the cards for Wednesday. I didn’t go up any dots last month, so the pump is primed this time. I feel like I’m on the cusp and can’t wait to break through!

Thursday: I’ve got an easy ride scheduled after those first two assessments, and good thing; my legs will need it!

Friday: We end the workweek with my CSS swim test in the pool, which I hope to improve on from last month. Then later in the day I’ll hit up a Restore workout at RowHouse (for I will definitely be in need of restoration!).

Saturday: No rest for the weary: A 1:15 threshold and hold bike session is in the cards to kick off the weekend, followed by a 20-minute brick run. I’ll probably do the bike ride with the club, which will add an air of festivity to the occasion!

Sunday: A 50-minute “long run” of marathon repeats is in the cards for Sunday! 

Have a great week, friends!